10/9/08
It's kind of windy outside, blowing just enough wind to make you want to grab a jacket right before you go out. But it's nothing compared to what's going through my mind right now.
With that said, let me unload all that's going on. First off, I met a pretty awesome girl this past Sunday at house church. Her name's Laura and the kicker is she's a Kansas girl that somehow made it up to the big city. She's truly this cute all-American girl. We've spent this whole week so far just talking and hanging out, went down the the aquarium and we're going out for dinner on Friday. I've feel like there's just been this sorta goofy smile on my face all week. Hopefully this is the start of something beautiful.
"This is the start..." That's exactly what I'm wondering. It's like I know that God is in this situation but what exactly is He up to? This summer was a time of turning my relationships and girl situations over to Him. It was pretty cool and at one point it was like He just flat out told me what my wife will be like. She's gonna be musically talented somehow and have a super sweet personality with this ability to minister to issues that people hide below the surface. I'm maybe a little afraid to acknowledge it but Laura fits that, which now that I'm really confronting this whole thing is flat out awesome.
There is still a little fear though. Let's say things between her and I keep going great like they are now. Let's say we get serious about things and we're in a relationship. What's gonna happen with those deep conversations about our pasts? I mean I'm so far from perfect and perhaps contrary to appearance, there's stuff in my past that I don't want to bring up. Or how about conversations about the future? I got no plan of where I'm going to end up in life. And what about the topic of past relationships? I've had a bad experience with girls' past boyfriends. As obvious as it is, I really need to pray about this.
Even with all those questions and maybe "doubts" you could say, every single one of them disappears when I'm talking with her or playing cards. I really think this is a glorious start of something beautiful and I'm just going to take it one day at a time enjoying every minute of it.
Matthew 6:34 "Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself."
3 comments:
Just for your honors sake, I tyhought I might point out that when read quickly, this comment may be taken the wrong way,
"And what about the topic of past relationships? I've had a bad experience with past boyfriends. As obvious as it is, I really need to pray about this."
Boyfriends Thomas?
I would encourage you to edit this to display your real meaning... unless that was your real meaning which in that case i will discontinue our friendship...
I'm excited for you man... it sounds fun there. You sound like your in a really good place
Thanks for the heads up Ted
Awesome man! Just trust in the Lord, and lean not upon your own understanding. In all things acknowledge him, and he will direct your paths(Proverbs 3:5-6)
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